Harry Potter Tag.

Those of you who know me have already bared witness to my love, bordering on crazy obsession, of all things Harry Potter. I remember getting the first book when it first came out when I was 10/11 and waiting every morning for my Hogwarts exceptance letter to come through the post. Clearly that didn't happen. So when I read this tag on my beautiful friend Charli's blog (http://rosecharli.blogspot.co.uk/?m=1) I knew I had to share it. 

1. What is your favourite book?

Definitely, without a doubt, The Prisoner of Azkaban. It's when it all went a bit dark, it started to delve into the nitty gritty bits of living in the wizarding world. Not to mention meeting wizards from Harry's past including two of my absolute favourites, Sirius Black and Remus Lupin. Not to mention the introduction of the knight bus, which is just awesome!

2. What is your favourite film?

Again, The Prisoner of Azkaban. Seeing my favourite book come to life is, excuse the pun, magical. They couldn't have gotten better actors for the characters! Gary Oldman is incredible, it was like he was born for the part. The Philosophers Stone is also one of my favourite films just because every time I watch it I'm transported back to when I was younger and finding this world for the first time. It still gives me goosebumps when Harry sees Diagon Alley and Hogwarts for the first time!

3. What is your least favourite book?

As much as I'd like to say that I love them all, which I do they're are all necessary on Harry's journey, I'm really not a huge fan of The Chamber of Secrets. It just feels like an inbetween book to me, especially since when I re-read them I'm too busy getting excited about reading the third one!

4. What is your least favourite film?

Again, it's The Chamber of Secrets. This is mostly because in the film Tom Riddle comes off as a massive brat and I really don't like Gilderoy Lockhart. However, I think the Harry and Fawkes scenes are done beautifully. 

5. What part of the books/ films made you cry?

Too much! Haha I love all the sweet Harry/ Hagrid scenes, the Harry/Dumbledore relationship, I poured my eyes out when Dumbledore died (the film captured this perfectly) and I cry every single time Cedric Diggory dies just because of his dads reaction in the film. It's absolutely heartbreaking! The end battle has me bawling too, especially the Weasley's when Fred dies and of course, my favourite house elf Dobby.

6. If you could hook up with any character, who would it be?

Oh my god! I used to have the BIGGEST crush on Oliver Wood, the Gryfindor Quidditch captain, in the first three books! I still think he is beautiful! And of course Sirius Black. I don't think I need to explain that one.

7. Who is your favourite character?

I have far too many! Hagrid is a wonderful person who I wish I knew in real life so I could hug him all the time. I also really like Neville, who you see become braver and braver through the years. Severus Snape also has to be mentioned here, I hated him through every book and film but after finally understanding the whole story you realise what a courageous man he was underneath it all. This is also true of Kreacher, he doesn't get much of a mention in the films but Kreacher really makes me happy in the books.

8. Who is your least favourite character? 

I'm going to be completely honest. As much as I hate Voldemort, and I do A LOT, there are two characters I HATE with a burning passion. Lucious Malfoy, snivelling little snake, and Dolores Umbridge, ridiculous uppity pink cat spinster who likes nothing more than to suck the happiness out of people like a dementor. I'm not even joking, I wanted to shove a wand in her eye every time I read/ watch her. What a truly awful character! No one should own that much pink!!

9. What is your favourite line?

Again, this is difficult because there's so many to choose from. One that sticks with me when I think of Harry Potter is Snape and Dumbledore's conversation that Harry takes from Snape's memory in the last book.

Dumbledore- 'Lily...after all this time?'

Snape- 'always'

One that always gets me laughing is in book/ film five The Order of the Phoenix when Harry, Ron and Hermione are talking about Cho.

Ron- 'one person couldn't feel all that, they'd explode!'

Hermione- 'just because you've got the emotional range of a teaspoon'

I love every single one of Dumbledore's speeches, he always says the right thing at the perfect time.

Another favourite is Professor McGonagall from the last book/ film.

'Hogwarts is threatened, man the boundaries, protect us!...I've always wanted to use that spell' 

She's such a badass!

10. What would your patronus be?

Definitely a fish I think, I'm pretty sure I'm part water baby. 

11. If you could have the invisibility cloak, resurrection stone or elder wand, which would you choose?

The invisibility cloak! It's awesome, I'd definitely get up to some mischief with it! 

12. What house would you be in?

I'd obviously want to be Gryffindor but who knows? I'd love for there to be a way to find out for real! One of my favourite bits about Hogwarts is the Sorting ceremony. Especially all the cool rhymes the Sorting Hat comes up with in the books!

13. If you could meet any of the cast who would it be?

Emma Watson would be amazing to meet, she's seriously cool and I think she would be so interesting. Alan Rickman would be awesome to meet too! She may not be part of the 'cast' but I'd also love to meet J K Rowling, I'd love to hear more about how she came up with the Harry Potter world and the wonderful characters and creatures that she created and are adored around the world.

14. If you were on the Quidditch team, what position would you play?

Totally a Beater!!! I've already thought about this! I get really competitive so I can work out my aggression by hitting the bludgers and taking out the other team!

15. Were you happy with the ending?

I was actually. Both the death of Voldemort and the older, grown up versions of the main cast are bittersweet. It was incredible watching and reading all the pieces of the puzzle (or horcrux) come together. It was a beautiful ending to an epic series. 'I open at the close'

16. How much does Harry Potter mean to you?

I have tried to put into words how much it means to me in my answers but even that doesn't do it justice. Harry Potter has been a part of my life for the past 17 years, I've grown up with the characters and felt like I was a part of their story. I waited at book shops at midnight for the release of the books and I queued up at midnight for the release of the films. The excitement before each new installment was ridiculous and I would stay up all night just to finish reading the books so no one could spoil it for me. Even now, years after it's all ended, I love snuggling up with the books or films and being transported back to how I felt when it all started. I am in love with them. Every single word. 'Always'

Hope you enjoyed reading about my craziness! Do you guys prefer the books or films? What are your faves?

Love Kerry xoxo

WakeMeUpWhenSeptemberEnds

Well, it's officially my favourite month of the year! Leaves are falling off the trees, it's getting darker in the evenings, I found my first conker AND it's nearly Halloween! Definitely my favourite.

Spiced pumpkin lattes are back (oh my goodness!) and I'm in the midst of decorating my shop window at work all scary-like.

Halloween has always been huge for me, I love the supernatural and all things that go bump in the night- even if I'm a massive scaredy cat. I'm always hugely excited all the way through October just waiting for Halloween whether I'm hosting a party, going out or just staying in with snacks, my skeleton onesie, A Nightmare Before Christmas and Harry Potter.

 2008 as Alice (Resident Evil) & 2009 as a Vampire.

This October though, I have even more to look forward to! My friend from home has a little girl, Indiana, who is turning two so she's having a birthday party/ house party for all our friends to get together. Which in turn means I'm reunited with my  best friend of 13years, Kiran. Things may get messy! Being in Coventry also means  seeing the family and on Sundays I get to enjoy my mums wonderful Sunday dinner and walk in the park with Stacey and Toffee.

2011 as a waitress in Merlotte's Bar (True Blood)

October is also the month in which I have just over a week off work and the very first thing I'm doing is getting tattooed! Aaaaaaaaah I'm so excited! I haven't been tattooed in over a year due to being tested to see if I'm a kidney donor for Stacey. I had a miniture tattoo done whilst Stacey was in hospital (more on this in another post) but this is pretty big. I have over 30 tattoos now, most of them small, but I'm starting my first half sleeve. It's beautiful and delicate and I can't wait!

2012 as Harley Quinn & Stacey as Zombie Nurse.

This year my beautiful friend Charli and I decided we were going to do scare fest as I've never been before and it looks awesome. We had been to Alton Towers the year before when it was all decorated for Scarefest but couldn't afford to go. However, when driving to and from work I noticed a sign saying 'Fear Forest' so I googled it ( not whilst I was driving) and we've decided to do that instead! It's in a forest, obviously, and it has 3 mazes to walk round and be terrified out of our wits and a Halloween themed bar to calm our nerves afterward! I'm so tempted to dress up as Alice from Alice in Wonderland to wander round the mazes!

2011 at Alton Towers, being made up for Scarefest.

So that's my October! Have you guys got any plans? And do you love Halloween as much as me?

Love Kerry xoxo

Letting Go.

I've always found it hard to express myself. Ever since I was younger I have kept diaries but I can't seem to be able to talk and open up to people. I've always been the shy, quiet one sat in a corner with my nose in a book (I've even been known to walk around with my nose in a book without looking up to avoid things such as lampposts!).

It's not like I don't say 'I Love You', I do. I tell my mum and dad and I tell my boyfriend regularly but other than that I struggle to say those three little words that mean the world.

Before Stacey became ill I can't even remember the last time I told her I loved her. I found it awkward even hugging her which is ridiculous considering our family are so close but I always felt...silly? It was like it was uncomfortable and emotion made me nervous. Post-Stacey drama I'm all for emotion and showing affection! If I can give anyone advise looking back on what has happened to our family it's to show the people you care about just how much you love and appreciate them. I came so close to losing one of the most important people in the world to me and I rarely, if ever, told her I loved her. 

If you've read my blog from the beginning then you may or may not have noticed that I miss out a week or so where Stacey is in Palma and I travel home. To be completely honest that week is still so hard for me to talk about. Every time I think of it or start to talk or write about it I start crying. However, it's been over a year and Stacey is doing ridiculously well so I think maybe it's time to let it go.

Leaving my dad at the hotel, crying, and having to get on a coach to the airport knowing I'm leaving behind my family and a sister that I may never see again was literally the WORST thing that has ever happened to me. I still break down remembering the look on my dads face as we drove away. I sat on that plane and felt physically sick thinking over what could possibly be my last words to my sister, praying that I would get the chance to tell her I loved her one more time. 

My beautiful baby sister was in a coma for 5 days. She had exploratory surgery due to not having had a wee in over a week so her organs were swimming in toxic fluid and they had to find the cause and drain the fluid. It was a hugely risky surgery in the state she was in and the doctors had no idea whether her body would survive the pressure of surgery or whatever it was that had caused her to almost die. They couldn't even tell us whether she would come out of her coma alive as her body may have been too weak to repair itself.

Waiting every day was like walking around in a daydream. When we landed back home Stacey's boyfriend Kierran and I headed back to Coventry to update the rest of the family and sort out mums bills and stuff. Turning up on my Grandma's doorstep is still a bit of a haze. I remember everyone being there, pretty much the whole family, sat around waiting for news. I just remember loads of hugs and the most amount of tears. Everyone was just in complete shock. 

Stacey in Intensive Care in Palma.

I rang my mum every day, a couple of times a day, trying to find out anything I could. The doctors in Palma kept Stacey in a coma to let her body heal itself and after five days they slowly began waking her up. This may have been good for her body but was awful for her mind. She had been having really awful realistic nightmares where she was dying and she would start to wake up but get pulled back down again. It didn't help that they kept her strapped down so she wouldn't move her body so she thought she was paralysed. It took her a good few months to recover from how she felt after that. 

I can't remember the exact day that Stacey finally woke up, but I do remember breaking down in tears on the first day I finally got to hear her voice on the phone since we had left them. The day after that I passed my driving test and mum text me saying Stacey was proud of me. That meant the world to me, more than passing my test, just that Stacey was still here to share that with me.

A week or so later, after gazillions of tests, ups and downs, tears and ice lollies Stacey was able to be flown home.

This is where my blog started. The doctors and nurses that dealt with Stacey looked after her so well, she couldn't have asked for better. Even the hotel where my dad stayed were amazing and the lady who worked for Jet 2 was so helpful. We're so grateful for everything they did to make everything easier on us. 

Through every up and down my wonderful family have always been there whether it was a phonecall or a visit. I can't put into words how much I love them all, every single one of them. You don't realise how many people you have around you that care until something awful happens and I just want to use this to express how grateful I am to all of our friends and family that helped us through. Whether it was a Facebook post, message, text or phonecall, I appreciated every single one. 

I also want to thank Kierran, without him I wouldn't have made it through those weeks that we were separated from my mum, dad and Stacey. He kept me sane, he took my mind off things by making me laugh and I will always be grateful to him for that. He has been so wonderful with Stacey this whole year just trying to keep things as normal and hilarious as he can. I love you, you're awesome.

I also have to thank my own boyfriend Dan, who has listened to endless rants, endured endless crying, and driven me to and from Coventry whenever I needed it. I love you.

And lastly I want to thank my superhero parents. I don't think anyone realises how much you do for us, especially Stacey over this past year. You've both been so strong and brave keeping Stacey going and making sure I'm okay at the same time. I love you more than anything in the world. 

Stacey, I Love You. I'm sorry I didn't say it sooner. I will never take you for granted again. You're so beautiful, brave and strong and I couldn't be prouder.

Stacey on her 23rd birthday last month.

Huge thanks to all you readers too, who care enough about Stacey and my family to read these posts. It means the world.

Love (a very emotional) Kerry xoxo